Posted by Anonymous on 2013/02/08 under Uncategorized Life has been so confusing lately. I still remember last year, when my life was absolutely normal. I had very little friends that I would hang out with at school, and almost no social life. Then it all changed somehow, even I don’t know how, but I started meeting new people and making new friends. Today, I am not even close to who I was a less than a year ago. Until last year, I was the shy, intelligent nerd that everyone ignored unless they needed some help with schoolwork, and this year I am a kind, smart person who knows almost everyone. I talk to so many people that it’s hard to keep track. Sometimes I wish I had just gone on with my normal life, instead of listening to my gut and asking her out. It’s not that she said no, but the fact is she is so different from me. I mean I still want her to be my girlfriend, but I wish we had something in common that would give some justification as to why we are still together, and not just because we are really attracted toward each other. And plus she is also very confusing. One time, she really wants to do something, and then the next second, she sends a different message. I mean, like really, to all girls out there,trust me when I say this, it is always better to f***ing say what you mean instead of expecting us to understand what you mean. This is what life is doing to me right now: I am not who i was, I have become someone that I said I would never be. I am f***ing swearing right now, when only about six months ago, I promised myself that I would never swear again. I have changed so much in my short life so far, that it’s insane. I wonder what I should f***ing do now, I am so f***ing confused right now. I mean seriously what the actual f***ing f***? What do you really want? On one hand, you are talking about how we are going to hang out in the future, and on the other hand, you won’t even tell me if we can hang out next week or not? I understand that you are nervous and shy, but hey, life doesn’t give anyone a lot of opportunities, so you just have to grab it and live in the moment if there is ever a chance. What is so f***ing hard to understand about that huh? I know no one will bother reading this, so f*** it. And last but not least, what the f*** god? if you actually exist, then you should f***ing come down to earth, and see how f***ing messed up the world that you created is right now. You can just look at me, god. this is what the f***ing society is doing to individuals all around the world right now: turning nice, kind, helpful people into f***ing swag and yolo a******s. And of course, there are always those wannabe gangsters, who are so called cool, and 13 year old sluts. And guess what? No one likes smart, intelligent people anymore, they are just made fun of. eg. f***ing me. As i said earlier, almost no friends, known as the “weirdo”. Then became an a******, stopped helping people out, became absolutely rude, started f***ing swearing a lot, and bingo: know everyone, never made fun of, always someone who wants to hang out with me. And now you know why people that are nice are disappearing from this world.
Just so you know, I am not saying this to encourage nice people to change, I am saying the exact opposite. To all the nice people: Don’t change. Trust me, I changed, and regret doing that.